joshan means in slang: I felt a true love for the first man I ever met. There is no force in my relationship with you, and even when we are on the phone it’s so peaceful that you don’t have to think about anything. I also love how you laugh at me. I secretly want to hug you because you are too great for the world. You’re kind, honest, funny, and understanding. Thank you for being here, and for being there when it is right for you. I love you. It will be awhile before you realize. Just know that you are so smarter than anyone thinks and bring such a lovely, comfortable light with you. -pasta. (in Slang Dictionary, added by John Rice)